Tubby

Rachel is 6 months old today (well yesterday). I can't believe it's been six months already.

Since Rachel was born, I have been trying to lose the baby weight. I have been VERY frustrated. In six months, I have lost less than 5 pounds. When she was six weeks old, I joined the YMCA and went faithfully three times a week. I have followed the Weight Watchers eating plan, and in six months, I have lost basically nothing. I am SO FRUSTRATED!
I saw my chiropractor and massage therapist yesterday and was talking to them (individually) about it. My MT talked about stress. I said, "Yah, I've got stress." This pregnancy was extremely stressful, plus the fact that now, I have four kids, on top of that, one of them has a birth defect that requires extra care. My stress level is through the roof. On top of that, I don't get any sleep.

Here's an example of last night, which is pretty much the ordinary...
7:30- put kids in bed, leave light on so they can read for a while.
7:30-8:00 - run around cleaning up the messes from the day, get things ready for tomorrow
8:00 - get in bed myself and try to read
8:05 - John comes in to talk to me, put book away
8:10 - kids come in, put them back to bed
8:15 - kids come in, put them back to bed
8:20 - kids come in, put them back to bed
8:21 - turn out light in kids' room
8:30 - kid comes in saying he's scared
8:32 - put scared kid back in bed
8:32 - 9:00 - try to read some more
9:00 - my lights out, John wants to talk
9:30 - fall asleep
10:00 - wake up to John getting up
11:30 - wake up to John snoring
12:00 - wake up to John snoring, kick him out of room
1:30 - wake up to Rachel crying, go give her her pacifier, she falls back to sleep
2:30 - wake up to Rebekah getting into bed with me
3:30-4:45 wake up to Rachel fussing, let her cry for 20 minutes, then go tell John he gets to get up with her, lay there trying to get back to sleep, just as you are about to, Rebekah cries out and wakes you up, lay there getting more and more upset about the sleep you desperately need and are not getting making you more and more stressed!!!!!!
4:45 - get so exhausted but can't get back to sleep because you're just going to get up in an hour anyway and by the time you relax enough to get back to sleep it will be time to get up.... decide to just get up and get started on the laundry...

I know you don't believe me, but this is a typical night. Ever wonder why we don't answer our phone after 9 pm and usually not after 8 pm...it's because we're in bed tyring to get some sleep for the sleepless night before us.

And you don't even want to know what the daytime schedule looks like. Let's just say that to make one appointment for Rachel, I need to make AT LEAST five other calls to reschedule things. To make an appointment to get my hair cut, I've had to call and change it three times already and I still haven't gotten it cut yet.

Yah, my stress level is THROUGH THE ROOF...no wonder I can't lose any weight!!!!!!